I always thought you were one of thoughs guys who would change their mind in a heart beat
but i guess not. I don’t see how its a good thing. I never ask you for that much, yeah i can be demanding but then again its always about the same thing. I never ask for anything else. But when I finally give you the most honest and best reason too, you go on and just leave. I guess its for the best, i guess holding on to my emotions isn’t strong enough, and i guess i just need to be away from you as long as possible. Letting you leave hurts more then any of my breakups, knowing that i need you when you left just broke me. the last time i ached this much, was when you fucked up before you left for bootcamp.
there’s so much anger i suppressed and that i hate it when it finally just pours out. its not because of one thing its because of how many times i let things slide, how many times i just bottled up every emotion, and how many times i ignored my own thoughts. its unnecessary for me to cry over every little thing, so i ignore everything. i just want to hide in my own bubble right now and away from everything!