What's something nobody knows about you? Not even your boyfriend?
I guess its that I have anxiety attaches. But they’re not noticeable because I tend to handle them very well and hide them too. The only way you could tell I’m having one is when I tend to close my eyes very tight, or my breathing changes. Then I start to fidgit my fingers or something lol
This guy on cod asks to see if I was a real girl playing so I told him my fb account. He said I was one of the hottest gaming girls he’s seen. I asked him if he was a 20 year old still living with his mom. He said yes. So I told him to gtfo or my marine boyfriend will kick his ass. Which I find is really funny because he’s turning 20 and he still lives with his mom xD
The worst news I've heard since the death of my grandfather. . .
my cousin has 6 months to live…he has intestinal cancer. I mean to think I saw him a few months ago all happy and healthy even though we knew he had it. But today when I went to his house, it shocked me to see him. I almost burst into tears just hearing my aunt tell us how long he has to live. When I saw him, he was basically skin and bone with enough muscle to move around. Seriously I’m not playing a joke, I don’t have a picture because it hurts seeing one of my favorite cousins who basically help me grow up, just slowly and painfully die. I mean, yesterday I was so happy because I was hanging out with Krestal and Mimi. I told Krestal she had to go because I had to visit my cousin the next day. But I never knew it would end up like this. There are times like these where I wish there was a GOD that I would believe in if there would be physical and ACTUAL proof of him being here. But you know, life can’t be fair when things are finally coming into place. Like I always say.”No pain is comparable to a broken heart”
Any girl could look like a model or an actress or what ever
I’m not picking on anybody. I’m serious. I have friends telling “oh I’m not pretty enough, I’m soo fat, No guy wants me… etc” Blah blah blah.Why does it matter if a guy doesn’t like you. If you don’t agree with you appearance, change it up a little. If I can do it you can too.
To this in 5 minutes
Even someone chubby like myself can be from this
To flirtasious as this
I may not be the most attractive person on earth, but if you unhappy about yourself then do something about it. Stop complaining and whining that your ugly or fat or what ever. Its all up to what you think about yourself. Stop trying to be this fabulous godess that’s so difficult to become and just be yourself!
I hear and read from other girls our age, how much they want to date a guy that’s 20-25 year old guys. I mean really? I know what your saying, I’m a hypocrite right? I never asked for this. I don’t know about you but I complain a lot. I mean A LOT about how old my boyfriend is.
He hangs out with his friends to much. He’s too into video games. He is family orientated. His girlfriend is a complete camera whore. And has one of the most boring iPhones ever. There are no fun games at all! You could learn so much by going through someones phone.
I just need to get everything off my mind right now, so I’m basically venting to tumblr. Ok so everyone knows my boyfriend is in the military and he’s in boot camp. But everyone doesn’t know what’s behind the scenes in our relationship. Everyone sees me as a happy go lucky girl who doesn’t seem like anything is bothering her. But my friendly flirtatioisous outgoingness is just a shell to cover up how serious I really am. I’m not naming anybody. Or blaming this person. Basically its like how can I forget him saying “I love Leanne but…I can’t seem to shake off what I have for you.” So he says it’s nothing and I should just stop worrying about it. But how can I? I mean I don’t care he likes another girl and all but atleast admit it to me instead of lying and trying to cover it up. There’s no way I could forget that. I mean would you be able to do that? I don’t want to point fingers at anyone so I have to wait till he comes Back to talk about it. Its easier to read someone in person then reading stuff on paper. I really don’t want to put anyone on the spot, but I know how that girl feels when a bestfriend for years finally says something when its already to late. Who is this friend you ask? Well today Mikey Orriano left to the land of the maple tree aka Canada. Me and him have been best friends since elementary school. Its like a fairy tale right? Best friends for years you’d think something was bound to happen right? Wrong. He has a girlfriend and I have a boyfriend and it’s not each other. Because when he finally told me how he felt, it was a year to late. He told me how much he was in love with me a few weeks after my 1 years anniversary with my boyfriend. Plus I didn’t have feelings for him anymore. If he told me the year before I question who I would be dating this very second. And today after he left to the airport I asked myself ” do I really love this dude the way I think I do or is it that I just can’t live my life without a great friend like him?” Honestly for the past month, I was undecided if liked him or loved him or if I was just confused. Because when he stopped flirting with me and went back to the bestfriend person who I knew, I started to have feelings for him again. Then finding out he had a girlfriend just made things more complicated. But I guess I’ll never know how I really feel about him or matter of fact how he really feels about me.
Well sorry if I wasted your time if you read this. G’night