I miss having that best friend I can cuddle/sit down with in silence and just watch movies
I miss having the silent moments where we can just sit and do nothing and yet feel this big connection. Where you’re silently venting on each other with out speaking a word. I miss depending on someone else instead of how everyone would have to depend on me. I need a shoulder as well as I give mine to others. One best friend lives in a different country, while my other best friend is a few days away from coming home. I’m just tired of everything. My anxiety level is s high that my anxiety pills are starting to not work anymore. I really need an easier life then this, its so frustrating, I’m about to crash or even breakdown.
I hate seeing people I despise, be happy when they ruined part of my life. I hate knowing that I have to deal with something throughout my life that makes me so irritated and angry, while the person who did so can live their life peacefully without acknowledging the fact they ruined someone’s life. I hate feeling like I just want to go away because every time I see them, I remember everything they did and I can feel all the horrible emotions all over again.