i miss you, best friend. i miss chilling w/ you and everyone else like 24/7, like we did back at Rancho. i know things aren’t the same anymore, that’s to be expected. but we BARELY hang out anymore |: I know you spend most of your time with your boyfriend now & I don’t mind because he makes you happy. but it’s like you and everyone else are so focused on their love lives that i’m stuck here all alone. i’m not asking you to choose between me or him; i’d never ask you to give up your happiness for me. but like, idunno. i just wanted you to know that i miss you, a lot. i told you how i felt about this situation and how we needed a chill time, you just changed the subject. i’m not sure anymore. i cry myself to sleep just thinking about losing you and everyone else. i feel so alone and afraid, i don’t know who i can turn to. i don’t wanna bother you or anyone else with my problems because you guys are happy, i don’t wanna ruin anything. that’s all there is to it. i miss you. i’m sorry things are like this. maybe it’s my fault. maybe it’s just me & my mood swings. i just wanna know that things are gonna be alright between us.